4/15/18 -- 4:03 PM
Been a while since I've written anything here. Lot of things I want to say. No
real way to say them.
I'm not sure how to organize my thoughts anymore. At this point they're just
floating around free-form.
Work has been going well. Apparently the people at Matt's store are jealous that
the people at Josh's store get to work with me. I'm glad to hear people want to
work with me.
I didn't expect that to be the case.
Guess I just don't understand people;
but we already knew that, didn't we.
Sought out the last message Julie ever sent me - a message on Facebook
apologizing for someone using her account to contact me. She was glad that I was
happy.
I was not happy.
I'm glad she's happy.
Is she happy?
I've been single for two months now.
I'm not sure what to do with myself.
I don't feel alone, which is nice.
I feel empty, which isn't nice.
Kennedy got me all kinds of fucked-up.
-SO- -ANGRY- -ABOUT- -IT-
I don't think she's going to message me again. Not sure how I got so broken by
this. We knew each other for a month.
Felt like forever.
Weird how time can compress like that. The fact that I don't feel this way at
all about Elise makes me worry about myself. Probably jumped into that
relationship too soon I think. Just a string of bad decisions. That year was so
awful.
I'm ready for this year to be better than the last five. But it's already a
quarter over and it doesn't seem all that good so far.
Soon enough all my friends will be leaving.
Not sure I know how to make new friends. Not certain how I made these ones. This
is going to be an interesting adventure.
I find myself listening to Kennedy's favorite album a lot.
I don't have many other things from anyone else to carry around.
I don't know if this is healthy.
Am I just upset, or am I depressed?
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