5/2/18 -- 1:23 PM
Now I'm just having dreams about two things: girls and my job. Is this stress? I
don't feel very stressed, mostly just overwhelmed. But we make do. Always do.
Not having internet, in other news, has simply encouraged me to just hang out at
work more. So that's fun.
A lot of things are happening this month, which is also nerve-wracking. And
irritating. Maybe one day my life will calm down. One can only hope.
It's been about 3 months since Kennedy and I stopped talking. And since I broke
up with Elise. I hope they're doing okay. They're probably doing better than
me?
Why is that a question?
I don't like not knowing things. Maybe that's why I obsess, why I imagine dozens
of conversations. Make up scenarios. Dream so vividly about the circumstances in
my life. I wish I knew how to deal with these problems (are they?) but I guess
that's just one more thing that I never learned.
This is like being blind, but being in a cave anyways so does it really matter
that I can't see?
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