5/12/18 -- 7:15 AM
I am very tired. But I don't think it's just because I've been waking up very
early these last couple of days. The interview process just felt so... draining.
I'm not sure why. I should've done better on the technical interview; those
questions weren't difficult at all, I'm very ashamed(?) of my performance. No
idea how my psych eval and PAB will impact me. Is it just generalized anxiety?
Does depression matter? Do I have a drinking problem?
I guess we'll find out.
I am really excited by the idea of getting this job though. It seems
fascinating. Challenging. Plus, the opportunities to learn a variety of new
skills; programming, algorithms, probability and statistics, etc. etc.
Not to mention the idea of financial security, something I haven't had in six
years. I need that the most, I think.
Desperately.
Not to mention the fact that this job would make me leave Michigan. I could
finally escape everything there, leave it all behind like I wanted to so many
years ago.
I feel like the last six years have been a lifetime. Is that what happens when
you measure your years in terms of struggles?
Perhaps Jennifer can shed some light on at least the security process.
Maybe be able to give me a timeline.
I hope getting out of Michigan is the solution I need. Maybe at least alleviate
my problems, whatever exactly they are.
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