10/18/18 -- 6:35 PM Happy birthday to me. My birthday was about a week ago now. It was _AMAZING_. Death Cab played Transatlanticism from start to finish. It was a fantastic concert. I had a great time with McKenzie. Just... Absolutely the best time. It's been two months since my last update. I have a lot of things that I could say, I guess, but I don't really want to write them down. Or do I? Either way, my lunch break is basically over. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I feel like we should answer those questions. You keep apologizing to me about and for your ups and downs and how they can be so extreme. But I'm here for it. I'm here for you. I'm in this for you. I want all of you. I want everything about you. I don't know how to say it because we never really established what we "are", but I want you. I want to be with you, and make you happy, and smile and laugh and dance and enjoy life. I want this for the long-term. You're too special and precious to me to let graduate school whisk you away. You don't make me want to appy for Ph.D programs just to better myself and get out of this town, but also because I want to be with you. I want to go with you on this crazy adventure. I could follow you anywhere. I don't know how else to say that. I hope you feel a similar way. And I don't want you to pour yourself into me to make me full. It only really works if we both make each other full. I don't know how to make you stop doing that, though. It isn't that I need you to be happy - your presence in my life alone makes me want to be happy. I quit smoking because I don't want to die anymore. You make me not want to be dead. You make me want to be alive, and you make me want to share my life and share experiences with other people. I won't make you love me, but I'm gonna make you hate deciding not to. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ________________________________________________________________________________ Dilyn Corner (C) 2020-2026